02 November 2007
Happy Ending.
This is the way you left me,I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
10 August 2007
I'll be seeing you.
The Holiday
Long distance relationships can work, you know.
Really? I can't make one work when I live in the same house with someone.
I have another scenario for you - I'm in love with you. I apologize for the blunt delivery, but as problematic as this fact may be, I'm in love... with you. I'm not feeling this because you're leaving, and not because it feels good to feel this way... which, by the way, it does, or did before you went off like that. I can't figure out the mathematics of this, I just know I love you. I can't believe how many times I'm saying it! And I never thought I'd feel this way again, so that's pretty phenomenal. And I realize that I come as a package deal: 3 for the price of 1. I know my package, perhaps in the light of day, isn't all that wonderful, but I finally know what I want and that, in itself, is a miracle. And what I want is you.
So now I'm just gonna kiss you for the millionth time and say 'Be seeing you'.
[They kiss each other gently] Be seeing you.
Labels: love
10:16 PM26 May 2007
Human Heaters & Satisfaction
Hiatus Till Exams Are Over
18/06/07
But before that , I shall leave you guys with a lovely long post about Friday (: Well , it was spent at home 'studying' , with lazy cat naps in between. Satisfaction was guranteed. Since it was Daryl's 18th , we went to Lavish(: Met pebs, henry, andra and elisha at glenny and trained down. Found the rest at melbourne central , and trammed down to docklands. Charsiewbao's for supper and lining up against the wall for supposed 'vip entry'. Meeting up with the wesley people was pretty good (:
pebs/me/cherise
pebs henry me thomas cherise steph # tram&viparea
jesse me pebs henry daryl cherise steph #dancefloor
Hmmms for a particular reason , I didn't get tipsy or drunk or even high. I swear clubbing without drinking is not fun. I hate having restrictions placed upon me, but at the same time I know it's done for my own good , and well because they love me. Nonetheless , a good dosage of fun doesn't hurt anyone. I want to PARTY , drink as much as I want , dance however I want to , and sleep wherever I please. Afterall, girls just want to have fun. But since they're my parents and also because I'm financially dependent on them, I have to listen. No more partying till exams are over. I can't wait for the holidays (pouts)
Till then , I'll be having 4 new boyfriends - micro , management , accounting and stats. I reckon I'll be having heaps of fun with them , especially on our ooooh so romantic dates at matthesons&menzies , and the time we'll spend with each other. Haha I remember during O levels , I named my 100+exam papers for Amaths and Emaths after two gorgeous guys and when I told friends I had 2 new boyfriends , they actually believed it. I'm so happy I did every freaking one of them. And hopefully I'll be doing those 4 , and doing them really well (;
And people , please tag.
It's depressing that my tagboard is as active as my pile of homework.
Labels: boys, clubbing, friends, love, prince
5:28 PM06 April 2007
i love you
You're worth more than he'll ever realise.
Baby, walk away .
Thursday was the last day of school (: yay for Easter Break. Anyway , I went down and finally met up with Daryl and Thomas for 'tea'. Sorry guys for being all pissy and moody at the begining. I just had some stuff on my mind . Anyway , Thomas is still the same ); always irritating and teasing me about my sad height/age/weight . Daryl's more or less the same too , except that he has braces now! Haha , I've not seen him since Singapore and I'm really glad we finally met up (: I felt rather evil , having to lash out on them to go for the SAM Dinner at Sante. I mean , I rarely get to see them. Hmms Thomas ended up lashing and going with his other friends to some pub and Daryl walked me halfway to Crown. It's good to have someone you know you can confide your feelings with and well , are just simply there for you . Talking about the good old times and catching up was awesome. In the end , I ended up having dinner with him at some viet eatery (: We ended up walking all over the city , and heading back to 'halfway' point. It was oddly romantic (a joke) .
Baby, walk away .
Thursday was the last day of school (: yay for Easter Break. Anyway , I went down and finally met up with Daryl and Thomas for 'tea'. Sorry guys for being all pissy and moody at the begining. I just had some stuff on my mind . Anyway , Thomas is still the same ); always irritating and teasing me about my sad height/age/weight . Daryl's more or less the same too , except that he has braces now! Haha , I've not seen him since Singapore and I'm really glad we finally met up (: I felt rather evil , having to lash out on them to go for the SAM Dinner at Sante. I mean , I rarely get to see them. Hmms Thomas ended up lashing and going with his other friends to some pub and Daryl walked me halfway to Crown. It's good to have someone you know you can confide your feelings with and well , are just simply there for you . Talking about the good old times and catching up was awesome. In the end , I ended up having dinner with him at some viet eatery (: We ended up walking all over the city , and heading back to 'halfway' point. It was oddly romantic (a joke) .
After that , I rushed down to Crown to fully utilise my buffet dinner ticket. Ended up having some yummy cheese cake and other things. Met Heather , Elva , Glenda , Cheryl etc and some people left me to go gambling kks! I honestly hate being underage ): I swear the moment I turn 18 I'm going clubbing all night long and I'm going to the casino. It was really chilly last night (11deg) and I just wasn't up for clubbing . Somehow , along the way I lost my file containing all my notes for ALL my subjects in crown. What the hell right?! ): Special thanks to Mike and Jeremy for running all the way back to check where it was. Sadly , I think it's gone forever. So , now i'm stuck with having to re-do my notes this easter holidays.
mel , cheryl , me
And I realised that when it comes to matters of the heart , I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. Oh , and I'm sick now ): I caught my sister's flu bug. Thank you for knowing how to make my day better (: It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart , even though you're so far away right now. Look at us now (;
24 March 2007
of friendships
A blast from the past
Omg I found my old IJ uniform today and it brings back so many awesome memories (: The fun , the laughter and the best of all , the girlfriends. Gosh , I had a special moment when I slipped it on in my room. It was like magic - something that just can't be explained. The moment I put it on , I felt connected , I felt this sense of belonging and I felt happier. Haha , ok it probably sounds wierd to those reading my blog. Anyway I decided to dig through my treasure trove of pictures , so here's some pictures way back from 2005. Our last day in school , and the funny thing is I miss it. I miss every second of it , the IJ life , 'loner's paradise' , studying , bitching, just Us. Darlings , I know we've not caught up recently (everyone's been busy , other's overseas) I miss you guys terribly and know that you're on my mind. Sonn's back from UK already (lucky girl) and please , try to find time to meet up yeah? Haha if I was back in Singapore , I'd join you guys in a second. I love you sweethearts and I hope you guys have fun looking through some unglam photos . Ok, that aside - I'm doing my management assignment now (:
nicky&sonn / sonn,me,rosey,jessie,claire
theblonde&thebimbo , tenofus@stmikes
thelittegirl / sonn & her daily dose of knowledge
haha / nicky's drinking cards
claire&manda /tenofus
(: / the nicole's
godsisters / rosey!happypill
haha
21 March 2007
Labels: love
7:03 PM03 March 2007
No hero in her sky,
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
well , uni has been alright lately. somehow i don't see the whole hype about how uni life is so extremely cool , maybe it's just me. it's amazing how many people you meet in uni , from different backgrounds and lives. for example , my econs tutors is from denmark . haha and then there's the people you meet during the tutorials themselves. you know how it is ? haha sometimes there's this awkward silence whereas for others , everyone's really friendly. and you meet people , grab their emails and never remember who they are exactly haha.
haha and i've joined 3 social clubs so far - the singaporean club , the Asean club and Aiesec(some leadership business club) haha and i feel like signing up for more - the commerce club etcetc haha so now, let me whine ): you know the Asean club happens to hold heaps of events at clubs such as lavish but the thing that sucks is that i can't go! haha for example , last night cherise asked us to go to station one @ flinders st but pebs and i couldn't go due to transport ): ah , i really wish i lived in the city. and also beacuse of the little insignificant detail that i'm underaged. ahhhhhhhh my 18th birthday seems ages away ):
anyway , i met up with judy kawaii vanessa and yuky on wednessday (: it's great meeting up with the girls and listening to the latest nonsense and gossip. we had a delightful dinner and i guess it was homewards bound , cuz the rest had chem sac's the following day (:
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
well , uni has been alright lately. somehow i don't see the whole hype about how uni life is so extremely cool , maybe it's just me. it's amazing how many people you meet in uni , from different backgrounds and lives. for example , my econs tutors is from denmark . haha and then there's the people you meet during the tutorials themselves. you know how it is ? haha sometimes there's this awkward silence whereas for others , everyone's really friendly. and you meet people , grab their emails and never remember who they are exactly haha.
haha and i've joined 3 social clubs so far - the singaporean club , the Asean club and Aiesec(some leadership business club) haha and i feel like signing up for more - the commerce club etcetc haha so now, let me whine ): you know the Asean club happens to hold heaps of events at clubs such as lavish but the thing that sucks is that i can't go! haha for example , last night cherise asked us to go to station one @ flinders st but pebs and i couldn't go due to transport ): ah , i really wish i lived in the city. and also beacuse of the little insignificant detail that i'm underaged. ahhhhhhhh my 18th birthday seems ages away ):
anyway , i met up with judy kawaii vanessa and yuky on wednessday (: it's great meeting up with the girls and listening to the latest nonsense and gossip. we had a delightful dinner and i guess it was homewards bound , cuz the rest had chem sac's the following day (:
and the highlight on friday was talking to rosey! haha for an hour plusplus ok (: i missed her so much and i just want to say congrats to the darlings for their results . i miss you guys alot too , i hope everyone's doing alright in school and stuff . i know you guys are really busy (: and i just wanna say i love you all . anyway , talking to rosey's great - being able to bitch and just be truly me , catching up on her pretty exciting life , and just sharing details about what's been happening lately <3>
4/10 of us
haha you guys are all looking good
sorry , i stole this from your blog rosey
anyway , friendships are a funny thing. for example , you could not talk to a friend for a while , you guys might not be in the same country , but somehow you guys can still connect . it's amazing how despite everything , we're still as close (: haha on the other hand , there are friendships where like after a while , you just like have no clue about what to talk about ? haha and it's just wierd i guess , but that's the way life is . haha , i think i'm sprouting nonsense .
and sean , take care of yourself when you go back in ok , esp the toe & the cough. and personally , i feel that the results weren't that bad . i miss you ):
us , when i was last back
"i secretly hope that today is the day you will send me flowers for on reason."
i love this postsecret , maybe it's beacuse that's what i'm feeling inside.
6:08 PM
i love this postsecret , maybe it's beacuse that's what i'm feeling inside.
17 February 2007
chinese new year
happy chinese new year everyone .
#friday
well friday was spent with friends (: raymond was kind enough to give us a lift to crown and there , we met up with shal and pebs! shal's so skinny now and looks fabulous haha anyway , dinner at crown and then went to check out the chinese new year sidewalk bazzar. honestly it was really fun (: and there was this free face-painting stall. haha yes , so we debated about it . after endless rounds of discussion , we did it the old fashion way . yes , we played ohyapayasom(spelling?) and everyone sabtoaged pebs and i to go first! ): haha cuz we're the youngest of the group . bwehh , not fair but haha we had pretty flowers and butterflies painted on our cheeks. the guys were supposed to paint power-rangers mask but bailed out at the last minute ): what meanies. haha in the end , all the girls had face paitings (:
shal pebts me minji / crown casino
me and the lady / dragon dance
anyway , after that we watched smokin' asses- which was a pretty cool story with awesome twists in it. and went home and finally got to talk to that special someone (:
#saturday
was spent at work , and prepping the house for cny the day after. reunion dinner was a really quiet affair with my family only ): and i really miss the rest of my family in singapore.
#sunday.
haha it's chinese new year! mom woke us up at an unearthly hour (for me at least) around 10 and i had to get dressed for the 'family shot' ahha yes - that's my family
love them (:
ok , then it was prep for the party later on at night. so basically we had roughly 25-30 guests coming over - daddy's friends and er mom's relatives ? haha since it was a sweltering day (freaking 38deg!) we had a pool party! hailey brandon zoe shaun issac bryan olivia and i went to play in the pool . haha great fun with all the splashing and water polo styled volleyball. later dinner called and more guests came over - aunty anne and family , aunty bien and her family , uncle ashwaran and family (list goes on) haha so it was errr buffet styled dinning and drinks . hmms , watched the little mermaid which also happens to be hailey's fav show! haha she's extremely cute please ! haha i think she's in prep this year and she and i have sooo much in common! haha after the swim we were wearing similar outfits lol - halters and shorts . she's a bundle of joy and giggles (: anyway , the party ended pretty early because of school tomorrow . haha speaking of which , uni orientation is tml too . haha hopefully i'll be able to find cherise and agnes (:
btw , something happened the day after vday . and thank you for sending it . i love you and i hope you recieved mine too.
Labels: family, friends, love, musing
10:00 PM16 February 2007
love you long time
i cannot do this with you here.
i cannot think .
-greys anatomy
work today was interesting , found out kai happens to have his own accounting firm , several restraunts and shops . i'm interested how he managed to get everything done up and i'm sort of inspired. hopefully he can mentor me or something. after that , went with parents to the dragon boat restraunt at little bourke street . checked out chinatown , but there's really no anything whatsoever.
& rosey - you're right . i can't run away from this forever. thanks rosey (: i love you
& dee - thanks for the you-know-what. i'm glad we've sorted things out and i'm really happy for you (: friends till the end . honestly , i'm grateful for what you've done for me especially for being a great friend.
& tenofus - guys , i miss you all very much. i know very few of you blog regularly and i kinda am missing out on chunks of your lives . just know that i'm always here alright - love you all (: 1:01 AM
14 February 2007
love.
LOVE LOVE LOVE.
Everybody talks about love.
As if everyone knows what it means.
You won't find it growing on trees
nor at the end of that rainbow.
There's nothing there.
It may not even exist at all.
Someone can say. "I love you"
one minute and slap you on the face the next.
Lots of people say it's nice.
Others say it's cruel.
Some even consider it wierd.
I, for one , am not an expert on the subject.
I refuse to be dragged into an endless discussion
regarding it's pros and cons and whatever they think it's about.
Because , I love you .
If only love was as simple as that , maybe it is and it's only us irritating humans that make things complicated. Well , it's just another year yet again. I'm going to hope for the best , but expect the worst. Isn't a bout of cyncism lovely (:
haha , ok that aside. i just want to say that i love my friends and family heaps . i'm grateful for all the love and support they've given me througout my life . i love you all <3 and that extract above , was given to me by someone special , someone who will always be. haha and i've also come to realise that some friends aren't worth it , while those that are - are simply priceless. i guess ultimately , i'm just different this year. 9:39 PM
13 February 2007
A message.
And I'm not gonna stand and wait
Not gonna be there until it's much too late
On a platform I'm gonna stand and say
That I'm nothing on my own
And I love you, please come home
My song is love, is love unknown
And I've got to get that message home 12:51 PM
06 February 2007
fuck
FUCK.
FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.
this is the worst night ever.
broken friendships , missed calls from him , insecurities everywhere
and to top it all off , there's no water in my house.
and i'm the biggest most selfish bitch alive. 12:41 AM
03 February 2007
3 Feb 2007 , Saturday
i found that magnet which you doodeled on years ago. the one where you used those coloured pens and drew a huge heart , putting the words nicole there . nicole , you're my 8th world wonder. i think , that magnet had another half to it and i'm wondering whether you're keeping it with you. haha i think only you know what i'm talking about . well , it's these little things that you did , they made my day. back then when i was sec3
anyway , in the process of clearing my room , i found my old diaries. reading them made me think back to the good old days , back in secondary school and well , the times back in singapore.
i found our random post-its in my diary . haha the one which rosey wrote "ds , this is your post-it and i'm using your blue pen now. haha love you!" just cracked me up. haha and flipping through it , i saw scribbles from perry , jessie and so on. haha i miss you guys (: and the best one i guess was nicky , haha i had so many post-its from her filled with doodles of hearts and maroon5 song lyrics . haha i think it's just a nicole thing (: anyway darlings , i really miss you guys and i hope you're all coping with school (:
Labels: friends, love, tenofus
9:58 PM02 February 2007
i said pick me!
grey's anatomy . pick me , choose me , love me.
it's somehow sweet and appeals to that romantic in me .
so answer the phone , and tell me you're all alone.
and i wished , you would dissapear .
the labtop isn't all that i hoped it would be ):
my intergrated camera didn't come?! what the hell
Labels: grey's anatomy, love
11:49 PM31 January 2007
your love is like sunshine
AHH talking to gerald is awesome! haha somehow we ended up talking about guys . and my mind immediately went to a particular one that i've long lusted over for years! haha sounds juicy yeah ? haha i'm just kidding but he certainly made my day much better. haha that particular one is still my eyecandy after 4years? and to make matters even better , i just got a call and my new labtop is coming by friday! yay-ness.
but somehow , i'm still thinking of that one . the one i gave my heart to. 5:52 PM
29 January 2007
Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away
And out on a clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain
And the words that seem so hard so say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you
8:02 PM
That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you